I Feel it Piling On.

Today was not that great of a day. I couldn't really sleep because my son kept waking up at night and I had to go over to his room to check up on him. He's no longer sleeping in a crib but in a "big boy bed" and I'm afraid he might roll off the bed in the middle of the night.

Anyhow, today I was sorting out my finances for the past couple of months and for next month and this process took some time. The amount of work was stressing me out for some reason and I was finding it hard to concentrate. It feels as though I am entering a depressed state, I'm feeling low on energy and my thoughts are pretty negative.

I am having a hard time with the situation at work because I really don't feel comfortable with the seating arrangement. I have talked to my supervisor about this but he has not said anything about me moving anytime soon or if I will even have my old seat back, even though no one is sitting on it. I feel like I have to be constantly on my supervisor about this and it makes me feel as though I am bitching too much about the situation. I really don't like the effect on my ego when I have to constantly discuss accommodations with my employer. I believe that if I let go of my ego a bit it might not be so bad but at this point I'm not really sure how to handle things at work. I will go and express my concerns with my supervisor again on Monday and I will keep addressing this issue until it gets resolved. I want work to be a place where I make money and focus on my duties and not a place where I constantly panic to the point where it stresses me out and I feel horrible even when I'm at home. We'll see how all that goes on Monday.