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Great Gains

I read over my last blog post and noticed how grim it was. I did notice a spike with my anxiety at the time of that post but things are a lot better now.

Things have improved to the point where situations that used to make me very anxious are not anxiety provoking at all. I haven't had an extreme panic attack in some time now but there are still some situations that I have to expose myself to but I have a lot of confidence and truly believe that I'll continue on the right path.

I'm Noticing a Spike with my Anxiety

I am having a very difficult time right this second. I am having a pretty extreme panic attack and I haven't felt this way in quite a while so I'm finding it difficult to cope with all this. I am at the point of a panic attack where you feel like you're about to go crazy. My chest is so tense, I feel really hot and sweaty and I'm having extreme shortness of breath.

I am really nervous about attending a convention to welcome the new VP of our department. I am scheduled to attend this event in 30 minutes and I am still at home. This event will take place at a venue outside of work and I won't know how many people will be there or the layout of the room. I might be stuck in the front of the room with co-workers behind me seeing me have a panic attack. This would be a definite 10 on my anxiety scale and I cannot picture myself attending.