Homework time.

Homework brings back not so good memories of my high school days. As part of the MBSR program we need to do exercises everyday however written homework needs to be done once a week.

The written homework asked "what needs can you identify in your life that are currently not being fulfilled. What would have to change/what would have to be different for these needs to be met or for you to take a step towards fulfilling these needs?" to which I answered:
I want to be more physically active and be more financially stable. I believe I will need to get past all the negative thoughts that cause me to procrastinate as well as get past my fears and stop predicting the worst. I also need to relax on my perfectionist attitude and allow things to come as they are rather than believing that things need to be done a certain way in order for them to work. I work really well is structured situations so therefore:

• I believe that I can get on the path to physical fitness if I can find an affordable fitness class that offers the structure, support, and guidance I need.
• I believe that I can be more financially stable if I can develop my skills as a web designer/developer with the help of a mentor and by taking a course that offers real-world experience and top-notch instruction. I really want to work as a web developer

I thing these types of exercises are great because they allow me to thing about what I can specifically do to get better and continue my path to recovery.

I was not able to do my body scan meditation today because I was troubled by sleepiness. I will try something revolutionary tomorrow to get over this, are you ready for it:
I will do the meditation with my eyes open instead of closed.

The 10 minute mindful breathing exercise went great.